And here I wanted to be an astronaut when I was a youngin' - I feel so average all of a sudden!

I can see why learning about the true nature of the Crusaders turned you off wanting to be one of them. What most appalled me about the Crusades, was the slaughter inflicted not just on "your people" (mind if ask where in the Middle East you're from?) but that inflicted on their own people. It was rape, pillage and slaughter all along the way, as if the Crusaders thought that murdering unarmed peasants and Jews would be good practice for well-armed and organized "Mohamaddans" at the end of the road.

Consider the cat kissed.